My diary from June 13, 1994

Once again I have returned to you after taking an extended vacation.  I used to write about girls as if they were the only thing that mattered in my life.  It seems like they did.  I'm starting to realize that they are not the answer.  What is the Answer? I'm thinking it has to be leaning toward God.  I have destroyed him for quite awhile but it appears he was never far away.  I am going to have to let my ego and mind go before I'll ever have a chance at true happiness.  Something deeper than all this B.S.  Survival aint it because were all going at one point or the other.  If it today or days years whatever, it is inevitable and whose life will be better from knowing me.  I want it to be everyone.  I am going to start with myself.  Till tommorow----------